Right words to say

Seasons have come and gone,
You're still talking on the phone,
Walking through the rain,
Trying hard to hide that pain,
That I gave you first,
For I was just,

Not in my senses and I,
Have lost my way,
Through my life trying,
To live on while you pray.
For me in the dark and slow night,
And on the fast and hard day,
But somehow I just cant find,
The right words to say.