in the back of my mind

i dont know where i'm going now...
i cant see where i'm looking now...
cos i cant think of anything else..
when you turn around and walk on..

but maybe tomorrow i'll see
a new today and i'll flee
from all thats left behind
because its all in the mind

wanna swim in the open sea
wanna take my time for me
wish to breathe and break free

and maybe tomorrow i'll see
a new today and i'll flee
from all thats left behind
because its all in the mind

Magic Rain

you are my rainbow sky,
my sun shining brightest,
caressing me when i fly,
you are my gentle windy gust,

of the symphony of my life,
you are the sweetest refrain,

binding me with the spells most naive,
you are my cloud of magic rain..

and why you cant see,
when i look at you looking at me,
and why you cant feel,
anything while i'm in a world unreal..

Happy Birthday to meeeeee.....

So... I'm an year older... another 365 days full of indescribable stuff.. I woke up hoping, as is the my self made custom, that amazingly hot chicks would be singing me happy birthday, but sadly nothing of that sort happened. No problemo, if not this year, maybe next.. hehehe, hope floats albeit mostly in a gutter...

A really dull day, and some really thakale friends made sure that my birthday looked like a mass funereal procession.. lady love was dressed up impeccably as usual and was the lone bright spot in the otherwise gloomy day.. came back home and hogged on the delicious food prepared by my favourite person in the entire universe.. MUM.. dii was rather dispassionate as usual and dad was subdued... guess only two great ladies were interested in today..

23 is my favourite no. and brings me luck as well... i cant begin to count how often it comes in.. to my bike's registration no. to the length of my love's entire name.. bugger is almost everywhere.. and as i had expected last year, year no 23 of my life was one of the best as well.. barring the receding hairline, its been great, distinction in all my PG subjects, a lovely CherryBurst coloured Les Paul Electric Guitar and some other stuff as well.


23 years.. i cant believe yet that i have existed for that long.. consequences must have been disastrous.. but coming to the point, I havent done anything significant yet.. thats because beating the three day record isnt thought of as significant by others.. anyways.. i made two resolutions for myself...

1. i'll stand up to all my fears and face them and not let them drive me around
2. try and be myself

I'll follow this up with another yearly note to myself next year.... if i live this one out that is.. ;-)..

Someone falls to pieces...
Sleeping all alone...
Someone kills the pain...
Spinning in the silence...
She finally drifts away...
Someone gets excited...
In a chapel yard...
And catches a bouquet...
Another lays a dozen...
White roses on a grave...
And to be yourself is all that you can do.....

Special Message for the special ones: "If you think that you make a big difference in my life, dont be so sure of it until I come and tell you that, and if you still think the same... UP YOURS... >:)"

Special Message for the non special ones: " BEWARE , ZE LAD IS 23... ;-)"

I wish you were here

You say so much in so few words..
Smile and walk me through my worst fear..
And like always when your thought comes..
I..............................I wish you were here...

I close my eyes and I regret...
Why cant I rollback the years...
And like always in that moment...
I..............................I wish you were here...

Every night I feel it'll be alright...
When in front of me you appear...
And like always when you vanish out of sight..
I..............................I wish you were here...

You

And a star broke and flew..
And i caught it on view...
And it told me what to do..
And i said that i love you..
Only you...

But you dont want to know..
That the feelings i show..
Come not from heart but my soul..
And thats how i make my last bow..
To you.....

I thought it wasnt me..
But i think i gotta be...
I oughta tell you how i feel...
For you......

Stolen Years

She looks at people,
from the corners of her eyes ,
Scared to return their piercing stare,
All her words are,
Punctuated by her sighs,
Afraid of saying something unaware,

But deep inside she knows what she is,
All she wants is to rollback her years,

Smiling to hide a thousand tears,
Flying with her unspoken fears,
Guess all she wants is to be,
There and not here,
She begs from her today,
Her stolen years,

Oasis And Me

I had this strange dream.. I met my favourite band, Oasis.. and as usual.. Noel Gallagher did all the talking.. Liam Gallagher was grunting and drinking and lamenting the absence of spliffs or crack.. and there was a bassy and a drummer as well.. but who cares abt them anyways.. Oasis has always been all about the Gallaghers and their antics.. anyways.. the conversation went something like this..

NG- Noel Gallagher

LG- Liam Gallagher

M- ME... hehehe

(PS- i did try really hard to capture the manchester accent.. ;-))

M- yo geezers.. ssp!!!

LG- *grunt*

NG- ooii maite.. Oow ye doin aye?

M- good.. you tell me.. when's your new album comin out.. i'm waiting for it..

NG- Liam!!! thaa ain coke ye cunt ! its table sal.. doun sniffi ... Sorrey.. the new aalbum.. yeea.. aa guess we'd be don withi by August...

M- thats cool.. you want a pint?

LG- *grunt*

(I get three pints of beer... without a warning Liam jumps and downs one... settles down with the second.. third goes to Noel..)

M- so Noel.. i heard you gonna be a dad soon aye??

NG- yeea maite.. thas wha my missus told me.. i doun reeally know when it happened.. but feels good.. wait a sec tho.. Liam.. where the fuck were you six months back??

LG- (finally speaks!! RELIEF!!) I wasnt sleeping with her you fucker.. i was doing my songbird..

*grunt*

NG- ahh.. must be me then .. hahaha.. these days you really dont know who's doing whom.. anyways.. i'm really waiting for the child cos my missus is beautiful and i'm a genius..

LG- Genius? haaaaaaaaahahahahaa... my dick can strum the guitar better and my shit smells better than your lyrics..

NG- WHAT?

M- (trying to diffuse the situation) Ohh he is still high from the last joint i guess... dont mind him!

NG- yeah well whatever.. so what are we doing here anyways maite??

M- er.. its my dream and you guys are my favs and thats why you are here...

NG- ahhh .. its fuckin cool aye.. innit Liam??

LG- *nods* lets sing him something.. Maybeeeee... I daauunt reeellly wanna nooooooooo.. How your gaaardeeeennnnn grooooooooooooowwwwss... cause I just waaaanna plaaaaaaayyyyyy...

NG- fucking aye.. you sound like shit.. stop it..!!!

LG- why dont you sing it in ur sissy voice... makes me feel like puking right up your nose..

(heavy swearing follows... stuff that cant be mentioned here comes out... now i know who is more gross than me.. Liam throws the empty beer bottle at Noel.. he dodges.. picks his guitar to hit Liam)

M- oyeee you fellas should stop that shit.. you aint performing for the public... so cut the crap and just sing the songs...

NG- lad's got a point Liam... no public.. no publicity.. innit?

LG- *grunt* whatever..

(And then they belted all my favourite songs.. one after the other.. and it was awesome... the drummer had some cocaine.. and Liam put it on the floor as he couldnt find any other place to do it.. it was funny to see him sniff it off the floor and sing at the same time.. Noel tried to kick him so that he'd start singing again.. but some time later i saw both of them sniffing it off the floor.. when i couldnt see it anymore.. and after Noel pleaded..(he obviously couldnt play the guitar sniffing coke off the ground) i decided to stop it for them...)

NG-Cheers maite... i owe you one!!

M- oh you can give it to me now.. just look at the stuff i wrote.. i want to compose tunes for 'em.. got two or three in mind ..jus check 'em out aye?

NG- sure!!

(I make him go through my blog.. Liam pukes.. Noel is buzzed..)

NG- Maite.. what do you trip on when you write that??

M- what??

NG- do you do cocaine?

M- hell fuck no!!

NG- do you smoke up??

M- No way mate!!

NG- Ow .. Oow the feeccccccckkk do ye come up with thaa??

M-(rather sheepishly) er.. I listen to Oasis when i write..

(And then Liam got up, grabbed the mike and ran straight at me... not far behind was Noel.. with his electric gibson..and no he wasnt in a mood to hear me play the songs.. and surprisingly the bassy and the drummer were running after me... expectedly the dream got over...)

But something strange.. i still cant explain my mum abt some white stuff on the floor.. sniffing which the Ants got high... well.. as NG says..

you can wait for the right time...

to spend your days in the sunshine..

you might as well do the white line..

cos when it comes on top..

you gotta make it happen...

Guess ants werent on his mind when he wrote that... !!!

PS: I LOVE OASIS to the core!!! AND i dont do any drugs.. except Oasis.. ;-)