MayBe

Maybe so many things I wished were true...
Maybe I didnt see that the water is really blue...
Maybe I wont be living this life through...
Maybe it holds nothing for me without you..

Maybe the birds didnt spread the wings to fly...
Maybe the thoughts never really did die...
Maybe I never gave us a try...
Maybe we never really said goodbye....

Maybe this is the start of me not my end...
Maybe I'm an exception just not a trend...
Maybe I'm not a god but a fiend...
Maybe all I need is a friend...

Right words to say

Seasons have come and gone,
You're still talking on the phone,
Walking through the rain,
Trying hard to hide that pain,
That I gave you first,
For I was just,

Not in my senses and I,
Have lost my way,
Through my life trying,
To live on while you pray.
For me in the dark and slow night,
And on the fast and hard day,
But somehow I just cant find,
The right words to say.

The Train of My Thoughts

"Look out of the window, keep staring till you lose the train of thought. You finally see your reflection in the window and in all probability your lips will break into a smile because you realise how you have been looking all these days and how you thought you actually were".

Yeah this doesnt have any relation whatsoever with what i intend to write, but its tough for me to delete such things. Just like memories. They linger on just like the teasing scent of the roses that mum just threw out of the window. I think of it and I see a vase full of bright-coloured yellow roses and when I open my eyes, they are gone. And just like the roses, there are people in life who you instantly see when you close your eyes, but are gone when you come back to reality.

I dont know if its the rough cold weather outside or the fog of my memories inside thats having the effect on me, but it is for sure taking me on a trip down the memory lane. I miss so many people in my life, around whom I thought my life was built. But I've grown up *smirks*, learnt to stand on my own, and like all those who stand on their own, am pretty much alone as well. And confused too. Where is my home? People say home is where heart is. Where is my heart? Do I have one? Do I love anyone? I dont think so, and as people have been pointing out of late, I surely dont love anyone, dont have time for anyone, not for myself as well. not enough to even look into that mirror, to lose my train of thought once again. Not enough time to give life another shot. Maybe..on second thoughts..fuck that..Listen to the whistle, my train has come. the train of my thoughts, to take me someplace where maybe I can know what is it that I really want...

Live with me

I saw myself always on the run,
Looking for a safe place under the sun,

And just when a dead end ,
Was right in my sight,
You saw through me,
And came into my life,

And I,
Wanna fly up in the sky,
Wanna really get so high
So will you fly with me.

And I,
Wanna live dont wanna die,
Dont ask cos I dont know why,
So will you live with me.

When I was lost you came & held my hand,
Got me to get up & made me able to stand,

And now that you are sad,
And feeling so low,
I'm not gonna leave you,
Alone and go,

And you,
Should fly up in the sky,
Should really get so high
And I will fly with you.

And you,
Should live and just dont die,
Shouldn't just sit and start to cry
Cos I'll live with you.....

Cos you've been with me
So i'll be with youuuuuuuuuuuuu.....

Definitely Maybe

I'm in this world with,
A world inside me,
Nothing do i hide,
Everything's there to see

I am not someone I cannot be,
All it takes is a look in my eyes,
But no one puts an effort and i,
Just dont take any lies.

So definitely maybe
Somewhere someday
Someone will find me
And say i'm okay
I guess it'll take some time for them
To make sense out of my mayhem
I cant see the lock but i got the key
So till you find me i'll drink some whiskey
I know it sounds a little risky but,
I will live, definitely maybe........

Your life just stopped by to say hello

There are days, when you dont know
The feelings that are right to show
There are nights, when you're alone
Trying to live your life on your own

But there're no kings or queens
Do you know what life means
So dont feel sad and dont be low
Look arnd
Your life just stopped by to say hello

A few more words

Lost in the transition between myself and me
I tried to find the right chords
All i could hear was the silent symphony of life
And a few more words.

Looking into my eyes and behind them
I searched everywhere, amongst many worlds
But all i saw were the tears of despair and pain
And a few more words.

In days of joys and nights of sorrows
Trying to speak to my demons and lords
But all i could say was that i'm me
And a few more words.